event, life, self

Letter to my 27 year old self

Today I am 31 and a day years old. Yes, 31. How did that happen?! Well, I was born on September 9,1984 and that makes me 31 years old today. In honor of my 31st birthday, I will write a letter to my 27 year old self. Why 27? Well, read and find out.

Dear Xane,

Hi there clumsy, childish and weird looking girl. How’s life treating you? How is it being a mom of a 4yrs old baby girl? How’s love life? How are you doing with your first love for being in a relationship for 8 years? I know there are lot of things going on with you now and you have been through a lot of pain and struggles. I know you are hurting and you feel like everything is so confusing and that it seems like you are in a middle of nowhere and everything sucks and fucked up!

Well then, here’s a shocker for you…..

You will get broken, your relationship with your first love will only last up to 10 years.

You will be staying in Cebu for good.

You will gain weight and you are thinking right now that it would be great because you are too skinny and gaining weight would make you sexy, well you are wrong! You will regret it and you will miss that skinny feel.

You will stop smoking and doing the bad stuff (you think it’s impossible huh?! but u sure will)

You will be strong enough to conquer your fear of underwater (it feels great underwater)

You will be a top agent. Sounds weird right?! Well, You’ll be top agent for several times and you will no longer get suspended ( haha how many times you got suspended in your previous work? 4, 5, 6?)

You will get serious in life, work, love and in almost all of your actions and you now want and make sure you are giving your best in everything you get into.

You will be responsible and mature thinking individual! Yes, you will no longer be clumsy, childish and weird! hahaha

You will find new friends and meet new amazing individuals in this new City (but you will know who your true friends are and will lost some of who you have thought are your friends for life)

You will be an amazing daugther, sister, mom, friend and an amazing person (someone will tell you this)

Aren’t you shocked yet?!

Yes, that will all happen. Trust me, I am your 31 year old self.

But here’s another shocker..

The biggest challenge you will face right now is moving on, it’s going to be very hard, real hard! But you’ll get through with it!

You will find true love. Yes you! You will fall inlove with a young boy (7yrs younger), with a kind heart and with the purest love! His name is Benjo and you will call him “wehwoo”!

You will be very happy with him and with your baby girl Borgy Jazz! And you will be feeling great with your family’s love and will be sorrounded with people who you’ll treasure for life.

No matter what you’re going through right now, it sure will pass. I’ll see you in 4 years!

Love lots,
Your 31 year old selfxanekai